Writing to Save My Mind

I am a writer. I knew this, but tonight I discovered that me without writing can be a dangerous thing. See, I have an overactive imagination. So overactive in fact that in the time it takes a normal person to have one thought I have already created a whole scenario and contrived the appropriate emotions to accompany it. I don't even always understand how far the scenario goes or how deep the emotions run until I am smashed back to reality by someone else's complete obliviousness. I have developed a habit of writing myself into people's lives.

I want to be clear, I'm not delusional (well not completely) I understand the difference between fantasy and reality, but what I learned tonight is that I have a little resentment towards reality. I mean it's always there! Staring you in the face reminding you of all the things you have to do; every bill, every bad habit, every mistake, every willful sin. Reality is your mother. It wakes you up from peaceful sleep and forces you to learn; it disciplines you, and makes you eat your vegetables. But dreaming/fantasy is like the super cool older sibling whose home from college. Everything they do, say, or think is so extremely cool that you don't bother asking about all the things that don't quite add up. "Hey sis how come, if you have all this excellent relationship advice, you've never had a healthy relationship?" "Hey bro how come you're failing all your classes and sprouting 'words of wisdom' on life and how to live it?" Kind of get where I'm going with this? Sure fantasy is fun, but who's gonna win in life following the faulty advice of such a fickle friend?

Again for clarity's sake, I am not saying that dreaming or fantasy is bad. What is bad however, is abandoning reality for either. I must learn to allow my reality to hold me accountable so that I can achieve and surpass my dreams. Cause let's face it, having what you dreamed is cool, but having more than you dreamed is even better!

So now my fellow imagineers, let's pray to find the balance in living a dream, together. Let us pray that God grants us just enough dreaming to keep us sane, and just enough reality to keep us grounded.

Here's to a sound mind,

Ina