What If

What if I embraced my greatest fear? That I really don't mind being single. I would love to be in a relationship, but if I'm not, I can still be very fulfilled. What if I embraced a life of singleness? I could even go a step further and be brave enough to acknowledge that I feel alone, because I, alone, have isolated myself. That even feels good to type.

I would like to try an experiment; I would like to pretend that it doesn't matter. That single or not my life will be great if I make it great. Not building a wall, but demolishing one. Opening up a space in my life that I had on reserve for a life that does not exist. I could, in theory, fill that space with something, anything, that I want to. Hmm, that's a nice thought. It's like having a whole new room to renovate. Let's see, do I want a dance room or a library...